Friday, December 16, 2011

And She Kept Her Promise For All of Those Years

"And She Kept Her Promise For All of Those Years"
Digital Artwork by Jamie Miller

Happy Christmas Sweet Friends!!!

I know it has been a while.  My last post was August 12th and I had every intention of being back sooner.  My husband was in an ATV accident in Utah on August 19th.  It crushed the tibial plateau and broke both the lower leg bones of his left leg. After having surgery to place an external fixator to hold the break in place he was able to fly back to Texas. ( Don't ask.  Nightmare.)  He had an 8 hour surgery here to bolt everything back where it should be.  He developed a pulmonary embolism from a blood clot in the broken leg.  Oh, and staph.  Wonderful staph.  We never knew.  You think a broken leg and how terrible but you don't think how it changes every single aspect of your life.  He was totally non-weight bearing until Thanksgiving. We have spent our days at doctors and pharmacies and bathing and getting dressed and in pain.  The pain is ever constant and we believe will always be there in some form.  

But, out of this I have grown and changed.  I have found my voice and use it while navigating the wilds of the medical/insurance system.  I have found my voice and use it with my husband and my children.  I have been holding back and supressing my words, my feelings and wants and needs for far to long.  Martyr.  Stuffing those words and feelings down a deep, deep well capped tight with hamburgers and ice cream.  And the only one it hurt was myself.  So many of you have shared your struggles and have been so very wonderful and supportive.  Thank you!!!!! Thank you for being brave and speaking up.  We are all special and good and human.  We are all miraculously flawed and fragile and strong and perfect all at the same time.

PS- After Thanksgiving, my husband started back to work and walking with crutches and bearing weight as tolerated and has already ordered what I refer to as his "Pimp" cane to use when he is ready;) I tried to get him to order one with a naked lady for the handle (yes, they exist!) but he settled for a more dignified model.


Anji Johnston said...

Okay - whats this all about?! I'm hoping that things are good with you Jamie. I miss your posts and always wonder what is going on in your life when you have been absent for so long.
Hang tough girl! A new year is just around the corner, full of hope and achievements beyond your wildest dreams.
Happy Holidays Your friend Anji

Dorthe said...

Dear Jamie, what a tough period,-and what a win for your husbond, that he now started working again, That`s wonderful,- and how about you? you seems to be fighting ,also! We all need to be able to fight now and then, to enter a new way of living.
Take care- and a very happy christmas to you, and a new and wonderful year 2012, I wish you.

José said...

Good to have you back. Love.

Joanna said...

Oh my goodness, what a time you've been through! Good to hear that out of adversity your voice has been found - that is the best news.

Great digi-artwork - I find it a little bit scary.


Gail said...

You've been missed and I'm so sorry to hear about all those troubles....:(.
We surely do take our health for granted, I believe.
Hugs to you and your family for a speedy recovery.
Oh, and Merry Christmas!!!!

Anji Johnston said...

All explained now - thank you. As much as I would hate this type of accident to happen to anyone, in some respects Jamie, I'm so glad it did! Sometimes we need a life changing 'event' in our lives to truly find ourselves. And I think this did it for you my dear friend. I hope your dear husband gets some relief from his pain and you too! Stay strong, keep healthy and remember that the best is yet to come...
Love Anji

TheresainMS said...

Jamie, you and your family are certainly in my thoughts and prayers. It's hard to explain to anyone who hasn't experienced it just how quickly and drastically life can change when an accident of any type happens. Hang in there and I sure hope all of you have some extra-good and positive experiences coming your way. Hugs!!

Kim Mailhot said...

Beautiful Jamie. Sending love and light to you and your wonderful family. I hope you have a Christmas full of precious moments.

ivy said...

Jamie, this is just a hauntingly beautiful piece of work. Glad you are finding your voice...and your husband is healing. I love your artwork and your free images.
Merry Christmas.

Sugar Lump Studios said...

I hope your hubby continues to heal and it is so nice to see your posts!
Just stopping by to wish you a Merry Christmas! May 2012 bring many blessings! xoxo

kay said...

May you rejoice together this season- May you have health and many blessings.

your friend kay

just me jan said...

Just strolled onto your blog this's been awhile...I thought you'd been MIA for too long and figured I'd see if you'd come up for air...WHEW!!! Can't believe what your family is (and has been) going through!!! But kudos to you for realizing the light at the end of the tunnel isn't the train running you down darlin'! On other fronts...will you be showin' your sweet smile at Paper Cowgirl in March??? It would be fun to clap eyeballs on you again!

just me...sendin' NUTHIN' but positive wishes to wrap your brood in...jan

Elizabeth Golden said...

Awesome! I am so glad you have found your voice. That you can whisper and scream.
Total bummer about your husbands leg. As I broke my foot - no weight 7 months. developed major vitamin d problems and then shattered my hip. I get the pain thing. How lucky for him that you were there!!!
I am so happy that you are you!


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