"And She Kept Her Promise For All of Those Years"
Digital Artwork by Jamie Miller
Happy Christmas Sweet Friends!!!
I know it has been a while. My last post was August 12th and I had every intention of being back sooner. My husband was in an ATV accident in Utah on August 19th. It crushed the tibial plateau and broke both the lower leg bones of his left leg. After having surgery to place an external fixator to hold the break in place he was able to fly back to Texas. ( Don't ask. Nightmare.) He had an 8 hour surgery here to bolt everything back where it should be. He developed a pulmonary embolism from a blood clot in the broken leg. Oh, and staph. Wonderful staph. We never knew. You think a broken leg and how terrible but you don't think how it changes every single aspect of your life. He was totally non-weight bearing until Thanksgiving. We have spent our days at doctors and pharmacies and bathing and getting dressed and in pain. The pain is ever constant and we believe will always be there in some form.
But, out of this I have grown and changed. I have found my voice and use it while navigating the wilds of the medical/insurance system. I have found my voice and use it with my husband and my children. I have been holding back and supressing my words, my feelings and wants and needs for far to long. Martyr. Stuffing those words and feelings down a deep, deep well capped tight with hamburgers and ice cream. And the only one it hurt was myself. So many of you have shared your struggles and have been so very wonderful and supportive. Thank you!!!!! Thank you for being brave and speaking up. We are all special and good and human. We are all miraculously flawed and fragile and strong and perfect all at the same time.
PS- After Thanksgiving, my husband started back to work and walking with crutches and bearing weight as tolerated and has already ordered what I refer to as his "Pimp" cane to use when he is ready;) I tried to get him to order one with a naked lady for the handle (yes, they exist!) but he settled for a more dignified model.