Saturday, May 01, 2010

Lost Civiliations: Proof of Fairies No. 2

I made a list of the things I would do when I lost weight. Things that I am not comfortable doing now at my current weight. And you know what? I am going to fake it 'till I make it and I am going to do those things NOW. Push through the uncomfortable feelings and do them anyway. Step out of myself and see what happens.

So yesterday I spent the whole day at Canton. It is a 400 acre flea market with so many wonderful antiques and treasures and junk that only a collage artist would love:) It is only open for a few days on the first week of every month so my husband picked the kids up from school and I had a day to myself for the first time since I can remember. I walked miles and I met so many great folks.

When I got home the boys would not stop hugging me and my husband said they both were crying when I was not there to pick them up from school. Which tells me we need to spend some quality time apart from each other:)

On Monday at 10am I start private tennis lessons. Which at this point just makes me want to cringe, but I will be out there trying to hit that ball in all my glory:)

Quotes for Today:

"Some days there won't be a song in your heart.  Sing anyway."
~Emory Austin

" To overcome a fear, here's all you have to do: realize the fear is there, and do the action you fear anyway."
~Peter McWilliams


Jo said...

This image is soooo sweet, and that market sounds grrrreat! You're braver than me having tennis lessons, I'm still building up the courage to go to Pilates. I always feel so self-conscious, which I know is silly 'cos who's looking at me, no one. We all have our inner demons, so well done you for confronting yours!


Terri Kahrs said...

Good for YOU, Jamie!!! It's soooo important to have some "me" time. And I'm happy that you're not putting your life and happy memories and times "on hold". Good luck with hitting that tennis ball on Monday!!! Enjoy your weekend! Hugs, Terri xoxo

Kim Mailhot said...

Oh, Lovely Jamie...
I just got caught up with your blog and the struggles you are going through. I know those very struggles myself so very, very well. I think your plan to do the things you would do if you lost weight right now is fantastic ! That has been one thing that has helped me so much in my own challenges with depression - learning to be in the moment, to live it as fully as I can RIGHT NOw has been such a help. A lot of those negative thoughts and feelings are about things we imagine happening or things that have happened in the past. In this moment, it is really all okay. That is my mantra over and over,"In this moment, it is all okay." And so how I get through to the next moment and take the focus off of all the terrible thoughts in my own head.
It will always be a challenge, I think, when you are a creative, senstive, deeply loving person in this difficult world. But the world needs us here so very much. I am wishing you strength and big, big circles of loving light to help you through. Please email me if you have any need to vent or chat or whatever. We are on this journey together, my friend.
Big Love !

Gail said...

I hope you love tennis! I used to play in college down in Cali and loved it.
And that market does sound amazing, I'd love to venture farther away from home to shop's really on my list to check out some new territory.
Now if the gas prices cooperate, I'll be set!
Have a great weekend!

Julie Whitmore Pottery said...

I think a fairy of hope and happiness has taken residence upon your shoulder!

Tess said...

Walking at the flea market, playing tennis! Girl you are on a roll.... Congrats, I'm proud of you. (And yes, mommy needs mommy time and the boys need away from mommy time, now and then. It's good for all of you.) I wish they had a big flea market mnear me, I'd love to spend the day just wandering and looking.
I love the pic you posted here. I think that is the queen fairies castle...

peggy gatto said...

I just love this place!!! I used one of your sweet images for a faces challenge and I love it!

cindy said...

You, my friend, are such an inspiration to me!!!!!! I signed up ages ago to go to Jazzercise and I keep putting it off and putting it off, cause I figure I'll be the biggest one in there....but, OK, you've inspired me to make it a goal to go next week! :D Was great to talk to you the other night and I'm looking forward to seeing ya.

yapping cat

The Feathered Nest said...

I love you Jamie!!!! Honey, I was with you in spirit because I am a true junkin' queen! Do not worry about your weight...just get up and look for treasures is what I say!!! I'm so happy you went treasure hunting....I just wish I were with you!!! hugs and love, Dawn

Lori said...

good for you Miss Texas:) i hope you found some good stuff in Canton...very cool about the tennis...i would love to play...there is a tennis court just down the road here...and i can't get anyone interested in playing with me...maybe that is just as well, as i don't know how to play and would probably make an arse of myself...i thought it would be a fun way to exercise though...ah well...LOVE the collage!!!

Tami Roth said...

HOORAY for you, Jamie!!!!! I'm so happy for you!!!


Laurie said...

That's the spirit! Life is too short to wait! One of these days, Jamie, I'm going to come down and meet you to go to Canton! I've wanted to go forever! (I should have gone this month, because it's soon going to be too warm, huh?! Darn!)

peggy gatto said...

Tennis is all about

Evil Edna said...

SO DINKIE! EE slightly squealling beacause it is so cute.

Bill C. said...

This is so wonderful! I always knew there were fairies!


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