Fishin'...FITS For You...FIT Flicker and Having A FIT Over Your FIT Art! Page...

Sweet James

I took the boys fishing today. I taught them how to cast their rods and bait their hooks. We caught lots of algae and found lots of fossils and a pull tab from the 70's. I had to explain to the boys what it was used for in the olden days;) We had a wonderful time and it felt so good to be outside in the sunshine. I have decided to just do the things I have been avoiding because of my weight. Just do them and realize that the joy and fun and love on my son's faces far outweighs me.

Sweet David

(notice the feet STANDING in the water!!)

I finally opened a Free Image Tuesday Flickr group a few weeks ago to give it a trail run. We have truly lovely members and they have made beautiful FIT art. So if you have a Flickr account please come join us at Free Image Tuesday Creations and share your wonderful art work.

For those of you who do not have a Flickr account I have created a special page just for you and the link can be found at the top of my blog. It's called Having A FIT Over Your FIT Art! If anyone can think of a better title then PLEASE let me know. LOL!!!!!! If you would like to share your FIT art then leave a link in the comment section on the main blog and I will add your art and link to the page. Go over and check out the fabulous art pieces already listed. If I have missed you, then please knock me over the head and remind me again!!

1. Sweet Margaret! I love the soft dreamy quality of this photo and of course the fact that she has a name:)

I wonder what ghosts haunt this fabulous building? It would be perfect for Halloween art.


Cheeky Monkey!!!!!! Have you ever seen such a devilish grin? It is rare to find such expression in an 1800s CDV image. It makes me wonder if the photographer took the "serious" photos and then got some sweet smiles (or cheeky ones) for the parents to cherish.

Quotes for Today:

"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing."

~Author Unknown

"If you wait to do everything until you're sure it's right, you'll probably never do much of anything."

~Win Borden

http://vintagesusieandwings.blogspot.com/2009/10/tgif-whites.html

http://vintagesusieandwings.blogspot.com/2009/10/playing-with-layers.html

Amazed....

Photograph by Jamie Miller

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."   ~Anais Nin 



I don't know how to say thank you in any way that comes close to the gratitude I feel towards each and every one of you.  Your kind words and shared experiences are amazingly wonderful and brave and fearless and poignant and heart wrenching and heart healing.

I printed out each comment.  I read each one over and over.  On Tuesday, I sat in Debbie's office and read them out loud.  And we marveled at your kindness and generosity and bravery.  Your gentle outpourings of truth and love.  So thank you my friends.  Thank you for sharing a part of you with me and all who come here.  Your willingness to open your hearts and my willingness to open my heart feels so right.  I feel so proud of all of us. 

Photograph by Jamie Miller

Depression holds different demons for each person.  Talking about our fears and experiences is so very freeing.  I spend an hour every week with Debbie.  And together we have moved emotional mountains over the past 5 years.  One thing I have always said to her is that I was afraid people would not take my art seriously or me as a blogger seriously if they saw the real me.  That I felt like an imposter.  I never lied about myself, but I knew I was hiding my weight issues from you.  For fear of being judged.  But really, it was I who was judging.  Judging myself and judging you.  Not trusting you enough to be able to see through to the real me.

This 40 year old Jamie still sees herself cowering in her school desk, hearing the daily fat jokes and taunts from classmates.  She still can feel the burning shame when they stuck gum in her hair on the school bus.  But I think now that this Jamie would have something to say for herself.

And I certainly would tell them where they could stick their gum.

Luke?...Is That You?...

I think I have found Luke Wilson's Great-Great Grandmother.  I love finding old photos that resemble well known actors.  This one is strange because it is a lady and she looks just like Luke Wilson!  I have put together some photos to show you the resemblance. 

Dude, that is totally Luke Wilson.  Even my husband thinks so!

It is an uncanny resemblance.  I hope they really are related.  Although, I will never know for sure. 

I have been remiss about answering comments lately.  Mom.  Don't read anymore unless you want to hear the truth:)  I have been having really horrible depression.  Some of it is controlled by medication. Some of it is controlled by therapy. (Thank you Debbie)  Some of it is untouchable.  Some of it is hide under the covers and never want to come out depression.  Some of it is why do I bother depression.  Some of it is I am a fat slob depression. Some of it is if you knew who I REALLY was you would NEVER come to my blog again depression.  My lazy, fat, never successful persona

.  My want to hide under the covers persona.  So in order to move forward I have to admit to all sides of me.  This is the real me.  I am an overweight, 40 year old house wife.  I am a wonderful mother.  A wonderful wife.  I am not a wonderful friend to myself.  I am my own worse critic.  I am a constant stream of negative feedback.  I am who I am.  This is me.  I am working to change things.  I am wanting to change things.  This is who I am now.  This is me.  Love, Jamie